I need to stop what I've started. What if I'm not the only one. My craving can be a want for me but what if I'm very easy to let go. Trusting too soon. Why. Only because of the look in his eyes. Losing too soon. Why. Only because of the faith he follows.
Stop for good I mean. Start for moments in within. I don't need presence if I want my need. I wish for him. I want for him. But what if all this is just about a moment and not for what I see a lifetime. I wish to make someone quite special for me. But will these wants make me the one of the many.

Wish I had got this moment earlier. All I need is a thought to rest my emotions on. I don’t want to make changes thereafter. Just one devotion. Just one belonging. Tired of being a vagabond. Tired of being at the doorstep. I wish this time I make it my own. My home.

Why is so difficult to be devoted, typically difficult to being the god. I wish this one time I have the capability to belong, in every single said way. I never need everything, but I only need the meaning to it.

A prince of my time. A soul so undefined. Child like qualities. But divinity of a certain saint.

Seemed like a glimpse, seemed like an episode. A few minutes of unforgettable pronounciations, connections, tones, words and people. There's just something which seemed like nothing else. I dont know what exactly I was looking for, but maybe I had got much more. A story to tell. A child to watch grow. A dream of a certain soul. Blessed be he who let him unfold.

Everyday turns into a want for me. Is it purely because he makes me that way. He sees me inside out. He sees me as I am. He makes me pose in different styles. More like he owns a part of me. Is this what I wanted. Something hidden. Something fearful. Something is just not right. I don't know how I have met him but now he's an everyday to me. I don't know where this is getting at. Whether this will be anything real. I fear I might give into him. He's an illusion. I might give into being taken over. I will give into him.