More than a month since words were exchanged. It was strange, but this time I was stranger. I hadnt attempted to let anyone in my enclave. Scared was I? Nothing changed, except that perhaps, I hated the feeling.

I cried, angered every moment, and wished there was just once one everything had become normal. why was i misunderstood? why was i the loser again?
why was i wat i was today?

'Na'

It started on a Sunday, ended on the next. So beautiful so pure... I might have never been able to understand how innocence filled up the every moment of the week. Something that never started could never end.

I’m trying to explain, but something’s wrong, you don’t sound the same now. Like a promise meant to keep. I always said that I would make mistakes. I’m so much better than you guessed. I’m relieved, relaxed and I’ll get over the loss. I only wish you get out of my thoughts right now. Keep in mind; we’re under the same sky.

And ya, it’s alright, I’m okay!

To describe you the best, you still remain, cruel, sharp, free, feared & powerful.

It was a miracle...

Seeing was believing that the beastly creature could smile. He heard me talk, he heard my thoughts and yet reacted the way humans did.

And then he said he wouldn’t care. A sinner he was who married a million times, said he wouldn’t want to be trapped in ways I did. I narrated my dream but he refused.

He who speaks so well should have never spoken but in vain, I do know am not the first mistaken maiden he might have had.

Couldn’t have hated him more over what he said. Think over again and again I plead. Don’t go I said, give me a chance to prove, that maybe life could be colored in a way I could. But the warrior so gallant that he was, shrugged me off like human dust.

Said he had treaded too far to ever return.

Do u hear?

A simple 'hi' complimented with a smile, all that I seeked from the beastly human!

Alas, heretic and a rebel, with 3D armour he glances away as though I were not existing. I plead guilty for not observing the style other maidens would, but after months did I get his name.

He still doesnt talk to me, although I still wait for him to call. To me he is a million dollar baby, only if he'd give me a chance. Juz one conversation and one smile.. complimented with a glance.. too much did i ask for.

He still doesnt know who I am.. but would he then.. care to call??

I'm an escapist. Once again, in search of the wants, I'm taking off. To be with myself, to be who I always was. To face fear, to be strong. To make a decision and stand by it. To walk it again, but yet so fast.. almost run.

Life has been ruthless, not a drop of the ocean touched me so long. Not a smile I did not doubt. I never could have been older and matuared than what I feel right now.

I trusted and I still trust everything I ever did and will do. I wont regret, but I know I will fear. I will come back after I know who and how I can be. I know, I'll be fine to see and smile.

I will survive.

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